Having to keep it all together when I felt like crumbling. Taking it all on when other people weren't asking that of me. They were willing to take part of it off my plate but I wouldn't let him. I actually couldn't even see it.

As painful and as challenging as it is to feel the grief, it is necessary to moving through it. Within that grief is heartache and disappointment. It's anger and sadness. And that may be uncomfortable, but friend, I invite you to feel it. You don't have to feel it alone.

Last week we talked about grieving. I mentioned at one point that grief can be compounded by past experiences. There may be times when you’re feeling more emotion than you need to—a compounded sense of emotion. It may be that you have had past experiences that carry trauma that is not yet resolved and it’s affecting you in the present day. My encouragement to you is to just to consider, are there things that you are going through in your life that you might be feeling a more intense emotion than you need to be. If you can find resolution and healing for some of my past traumatic experiences, then some of my present day won’t feel so difficult and painful.

Today’s episode is about grief. Grief is a lonely place. First, it’s important that you have compassion and tenderness towards yourself during your season of grief. That you allow yourself to grieve for as long as you need. This time of grief for me, I needed to give myself time to walk through it. Since I allowed myself to feel the emotions, they were really intense. I wasn’t denying them or suppressing them. I wasn’t disconnecting from myself.